Fix A Heart

So I'm sitting in the PCL with a bunch of the pledges studying yet I feel disconnected. My phone is playing all the songs that are just speaking to me like "I Like" by Stephanie Ferrett & "Disaster" by JoJo! Is it trying to tell me something? Tears actually started to well up in my eyes during "Fix A Heart" bu Demi Lovato! What is up with me? What is going on! I'm beyond confused and a little worried! Is it me wanting someone to call my own that is making feel like this? It seems like everyone around me is making connections and finding someone for them while I'm just here. ALONE. What is wrong with me? Am I damaged goods? I don't know! It seems like I have advise and wisdom to be shared with other people but not for myself. I guess no one will ever "FIX MY HEART!"

Worried!

Hey Blog!

Right now, I am beyond worried and totally doubting myself. Within the past 3 days, 2 of my Eta babies have decided to drop from the pledge process :(. I really don't know what to do right now. Each one of them have valid reasons for their decisions, but it is so taking a toll on me. Since I've been in the fraternity, no other pledge educator has had to deal with someone dropping let alone 3. I just need some real encouragement or someone to tell me I'm doing a shitty job so I can fix this.

Praying for some guidance!